You can always get what you want

If there is one thing i hate the most in this world its being ignored. i just spent eight months being ignored. eight months of no one to talk to. eight months to just sit in silence. do you not understand what that does to a person? my mind is so messed up from it. not just because i was ignored but because the person who did is one of those people who are supposed to be a model someone to learn from. Family. my sister. then when i finally get a way you sen me messages. not im sorry or i love you but messages that say im sick you hate me im crazy. on top of that i go somewhere i think i will be appriceated and understood. ha thats not how it worked out either. do they not understand what i went through my brain ripped apart. i lost all sanily being with my sister. but they dont understand. they say its ok your not there anymore you can be normal now. normal? how can i be normal. i wish i honestly wish i could explane to them what is going on in my head but m so scared. its one thing to no your crazy but another when others no it too. so im sorry if i randomly start crying. or if your words hurt i cant help it. i wish i could but i cant. the damage has been done.